I had grand ambitions for this blog
I am a grand ambitions kind of person
(secretly, inside my head)
But ambivalence got the better of me and reluctance made me delete what I wrote
I think I thought
(these words are a sort of chorus in my life)
that because I am a writer, and a person whose head is s o f u l l of thoughts,
that words simply would spill out of me
Gush out in arresting articles and striking observations
But maybe my personality is more like that
of those prolific writers who write 800-page master works
but trip over their own words in a simple interview or letter
I do have much to say
But I don’t say it easily
Two other things comes more naturally to me, than writing my thoughts in a blog post:
The first is to listen
(I already know my stories, but I don’t know yours)
The second is to put myself into someone else’s shoes, writing from their point of view and in their voice,
That feels so much easier than staying in my shoes, writing from my point of view and in my voice.
(A little like an actor who readily takes on a character
Breathing life into it, without being shy or timid
But who is, in reality, rather private)
I am too aware of my complexity
Or perhaps I’m just easily perplexed by something that to other people,
really appears quite simple
Lys Wordsmithery 